The more I learn the more I know...

As you know already I am a college student. Well this week is finals (Let me just state an UGH!!! for the loathing of final projects and papers.) I have been successfully putting off my ethics paper for weeks now. I now have 3 hours and 9 minutes till this paper is due. Another 4 pages to write. sources to cite and a cover page to create, but instead of writing that I think I will blog a little.

My Ethics paper is on sexual morality. I have done some research and I always knew my opinion on it but the more I learn the more I know I am suppose to be away from my family. I am from Indiana. One of the most close minded places you will ever visit. Not only is being gay wrong, but casual sex will basically send you straight to hell. O My could you image if my family found out I don't believe in the God they worship daily. I mean I know they are worried about my soul but I am not.

I just can't understand being that close minded. I am worried to go home now. Hell if they knew all the things I do and would do then I would surely send my mother to an early grave. I am a strong believer in casual sex, moving in with someone (before marriage gasp!), I am dating a girl and we have sex (in my opinion a lot) and we aren't married, I have tattoos and piercings. I am scared to think of the person I would be if I was stuck in that place! I am so glad I am in a place with open minded people. I can live my life and be exactly who I want to be and who I determine to be the best for me. I can create my own ideals and decide for myself instead of being spoon fed all of the shit they believe and I don't.

Today I am trying one of those movie scene things. I am sitting in Barnes and Nobles blogging. Only there is a problem in the movies there is no annoying teenagers talking really loudly in front of them. I mean I am just reassuring myself that my life is no movie. Any ways the reason for my post today. It is the day before Thanksgiving. I am really ridiculously sad. I have missed thanksgiving with my family before but I am ridiculously sad to be missing Thanksgiving and Christmas with my family. This is the first year I am not living at home for all of those. I know it is part of living away from home but damn I miss hating going to  Aunt's and spending Christmas with cousins we never see. The crazy running around and getting dressed up. but I miss the spending time with my family. I miss my siblings. Elissa will be moving away soon. she is a sophomore only a couple more years and she won't be at home either. I am glad that life is going and we are doing our own things but I really miss them! I really miss the dynamic we had last Christmas. Its just hard I guess. I am counting days till we head home on December 24th. I can't wait to see them.