Today's question

Today's question that is causing more anxiety than I care to say is who do I want to be? What do I want to do? What path do I take? I am just completely thrown. Its like every part of me wants to do so many different things. I feel like I am at that one part of a jigsaw puzzle where you have enough pieces put together to know that they are all there and they will go together but which piece goes where?  Part of me wants to move home and live in my parents house. I also want to move to Indy and live with a friend of mine and her family. Then I want to prove everyone wrong and make one hell of a home for myself in Philadelphia. I want to finish school then head to some other really exotic city. Today I want to hurry and finish school then move away just completely throw myself into traveling. I mean pick up and leave. Go somewhere and just wander my way around. No plans and nothing holding me anywhere. How do you make a choice. Everyday my life makes a choice and everyday and choice decides where I am going in life. How do you know you are making the right choice? what if I get part of the way down this road and I realize its not for me? Is it to late to back up and start over? UGH!!! How do you know!? How do you choose!? Help!!

Also check this out. I love it!

Why to never date a girl who travels. (Follow the link)

https://medium.com/better-humans/802c49b9141c

Don't forget I still need help!!!

The more I learn the more I know...

As you know already I am a college student. Well this week is finals (Let me just state an UGH!!! for the loathing of final projects and papers.) I have been successfully putting off my ethics paper for weeks now. I now have 3 hours and 9 minutes till this paper is due. Another 4 pages to write. sources to cite and a cover page to create, but instead of writing that I think I will blog a little.

My Ethics paper is on sexual morality. I have done some research and I always knew my opinion on it but the more I learn the more I know I am suppose to be away from my family. I am from Indiana. One of the most close minded places you will ever visit. Not only is being gay wrong, but casual sex will basically send you straight to hell. O My could you image if my family found out I don't believe in the God they worship daily. I mean I know they are worried about my soul but I am not.

I just can't understand being that close minded. I am worried to go home now. Hell if they knew all the things I do and would do then I would surely send my mother to an early grave. I am a strong believer in casual sex, moving in with someone (before marriage gasp!), I am dating a girl and we have sex (in my opinion a lot) and we aren't married, I have tattoos and piercings. I am scared to think of the person I would be if I was stuck in that place! I am so glad I am in a place with open minded people. I can live my life and be exactly who I want to be and who I determine to be the best for me. I can create my own ideals and decide for myself instead of being spoon fed all of the shit they believe and I don't.