I am having a rough couple of days, I am going from 1800 dollars in my account to 40. My girlfriend asked for one thing for Christmas. A Phillies hat. I now have 10 dollars in my account. I have 3 weeks to come up with my 2900 dollars a month instead of 4 weeks. I am flying home with money and I know its not fair but Jess isn't helping today. When she moved in September we put $550 dollars in savings. She has been spending this money... We agreed to put it back so that we had money for January and February when my tips at work would be slower and I might not have enough time to come up with the rent, school payments, grocery bill, phone bills, internet, and living expenses. But here is a problem. She is spending that last 230 dollars we still have... How in the Hell am I suppose to keep everything together when the biggest thing that keeps me up at night she keeps fucking with. I asked her to pay for one thing. Her phone bill. I paid for the last part of her phone bill. She doesn't pay for food, she can spend her money on anything.
Today I wanted coffee. I literally do not have a dollar to my name that I can spend. I love her to death and I want to take care of her and get her what she needs but I am drowning and when we talk about it she gets so upset she shuts down and that doesn't do any of us any good.
It will get better... I will make ends meet... but right now I am not even paying my school bills...
I am taking deep breaths and trying to make it work.
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